Cows seem to like me

We went shopping for awhile today and had a really good time. All in all, it was a good day. We stopped by some tack stores and western wear. I finally found the boots that I've been looking for. My old pair, had them for 3 years, went to boot Heaven last week. Almost the entire sole came off of them. Thankfully I wasn't running at the time...LOL

It was a nice evening when we got back home and we decided to go for a ride. We have been working w/ Dusty on saddling. He has been quite antsy when saddling so I was trying to get him out of it. I don't know what happened between the last time we saddled him and today but something did. He stood completely still for the whole thing. I was quite impressed.

Perhaps that built my confidence up too much.

We went riding in a small pasture that I have. It's about 20 acres or so? Something like that. I suppose in retrospect it went ok...but I dunno. It is such a difficult thing for me not to be confident in whatever it is that I'm doing. I've always done well in school, I can work my cows, I know what's going on w/ them, I love and can handle my dogs, I have pulled through some of the toughest things that a person can imagine but this horseback riding is definately my Achilles heel.

We went around the pasture and things went pretty good. We got back near the gate and Dusty wanted to go back to the barn. He started to throw his little fit and I got him to stop. That was successful. We went back around and rode a bit more. Later, we were going the opposite way in the pasture and P had ended up behind me and I was in front. Dusty decided that he didn't want to go down the hill, so I circled him to the right and then tried to get him to go down the hill.

Again, he didn't wanna go, so I circled him again. Then he threw his lil fit. I got scared and called to P. He came over but stayed behind us while we rode.

Maybe I should have just stayed in the barn w/ him for several more times. Maybe I'm just not good at riding. Maybe I panic too fast. Maybe I just don't know what the hell I'm doing. I have no idea. Maybe I should just stick w/ cows...they seem to like me.

I almost didn't write this post because I didn't want to sound like a whine bag. But, this is a blog about me learning how to ride and this unsuccessful stuff is a part of it...even though I don't like it.